Life gets tough… one day you feel good, you are happy, maybe you are still not where you want to be but you are on your way and you are excited.
And then something happens and you just sink…you go down and no matter what you try, it seems like you can’t lift yourself up again.
I feel you, I’m there right now actually and that’s why I am writing this.
This can happen to anyone just to be clear. Don’t think that all those Instagram divas that look all so smiley and happy on their pictures don’t have days when they don’t want to get out of the bed, they want to eat candy all day long and definitely don’t want to smile for the camera. A few of them who are not afraid to be real will show that side too and that’s why we like them. But for rest of us who don’t have glamorous Instagram accounts, showing that side is not really something we like to do.
And that’s the catch. We isolate ourselves in those tough moments. We don’t talk to people, we don’t share how we feel or why we feel that way. We feel ashamed that we are down and we try to hide it behind the fake smile because we think that there’s something wrong with us if we do.
I’m feeling depressed for last couple of days. When my husband is at work I mop around, cry, or try to distract myself with food…anything just not to think how bad I feel. When he gets home I try to be all smiles because I don’t want to talk about how I feel… I don’t see how it would help.
Until last night…he just hugged me and said, “Talk to me” and that’s was it-the dam broke and I just started crying for real and told him every little thing. How I feel, why I feel like that,…the whole shebang!
It wasn’t hard, it just felt good.
And it got him to open up about things that bother him too. So, it ended up being bonding time as well as time for me to release my emotions.
I’m still not back to being my happy self. I guess sometimes it takes more than a few tears and used tissues, but at least now I feel like it’s ok. I know that I should give myself time and I should love myself through this period. Nothing lasts forever so this bad feeling won’t last either.
So, to take home from this post is this-talk to people about your feelings, don’t bottle them up, hide them, pretend that they are not there. That can lead to many bad things and it’s something that will definitely not help you feeling better. Don’t go around complaining all day how bad it is because that brings only negativity, but do have a meaningful conversation where you will let yourself be vulnerable.
It will help!
I promise.
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